Saturday, March 5, 2016

NEW BLOG LOCATION

Hi Everyone,

Nalia's World has officially been moved! You can now find all my old posts and new ones at www.queenbemonyei.com.

Thanks!

Saturday, August 16, 2014

Extracurricular Activites

So today I purchased a violin. I have been wanting a violin for quite some time now. There is something about them that is so wonderful, so magical, so...well there are no words to truly describe them. Anytime a violin is added to a song it instantly makes the song epic. Well I am being dramatic but you get the point. I realize that this is something I probably should have started playing when I was like two, but I figure you can never be too old to start.
   I'm not sure what will come out of this but I would really love to be able to be good enough to play so that it doesn't make other's ear drums bleed. These are low goals I suppose but I just want to be able to play. I don't even really need others to hear it. I want to secretly channel Sherlock as my bow glides across the strings as if to somehow channel his genius as well. Ok now I'm just being silly. But seriously I think everyone should have a fun activity that is just for them; something that makes them feel alive. I don't know if the violin will do that for me but I guess there is only one way to find out.
 

Friday, August 15, 2014

The Summer Is Over

                             
 It has been a wonderful summer. But sadly it is over. After 6 different countries I am happy not to see the inside of a plane for a while. Well not that long. I have decided to dedicate more time to my random doodles and my writing. I've also given my avatar a much needed update. I've learned a lot this summer about myself but the picture illustrates what I hope to hold on to.

Saturday, June 14, 2014

Update: Querying For My New Picture Book


I am on the query board and it has been terrifying and liberating to some degree. I have been teaching preschool for the past year and have become increasingly inspired by the countless amounts of picture books I read all year long.
    This year I decided to take my first stab at picture book writing and wrote a 316 work book called, The Magic StringThis interactive story asks readers to help the main character, String, out. When String realizes that it is too short to be of any good use it loses all the magic it once had and finds itself with a case of the slumps. This story is about the undoubted power of friendship and what happens to us when life doesn’t always go as planned. 


Here is a preview:
 
This book is unconventional as it doesn't contain a lot of pictures in the beginning or in the book in general but that was purposeful. I wanted it to be simplistic but also engaging. Let's see what comes of it!

Saturday, May 31, 2014

Writing, Fears and Perfectionism.

You've had one of those moments, you know when you are sitting next to your To Do List and you know all the things you need to get done when suddenly you find yourself on the couch watching The Secret Life of Walter Mitty and you have no idea how you got there. Today I wrote out all of my goals and to do lists. I highlighted, color coded, and drew my little empty check boxes.
I was ready to go but there were also two powerful forces at work that are both production killers (in addition to my love of good indie films): my fears and perfectionism.

Fear of Failure and Success:
   It has always baffled me how these seemingly opposing fears can manage to co-exist simultaneously. After all that I have gone through you would think something as fickle (and subjective) as rejection would not phase me the way it does. Every time my writing is rejected it takes all my emotional strength to get back up again and pursue the project. Where is this thick skin they keep telling me I need to have? Well if it's out there I have yet to develop it, hence why I hate querying so much. Or maybe it's supposed to hurt this much when you put so much of yourself into your work. My art teacher once told me that all paintings are self-portraits. She was right. Every piece of art you produce is a reflection of you. Even if you don't see it at first, it is.
     Right next to my dear old friend Fear of Failure is his equally ruthless sibling, Fear of Success. The fear of success does indeed exist and is very real for me. I am terrified of being known for my writing. Of being seen, judged, and watched. The perfectionist in me knows it's only a matter of time before all my flaws and mistakes become glaringly clear for the whole world to see. If I achieve my desires and goals than a complete new set of fears creep in–that I really have something to lose. How can I bear it if such a loss were to occur?

Perfectionism:
     Perfectionism can do wonders. You know, like help you do an excellent job on an important project at work. It can also fill you with so much anxiety that you don't even want to get started on a project or you don't want it to be seen. The problem is, is that perfection is an illusion. You can't do anything perfectly. Everything we do will have some flaws to a degree, even if they are minute. Accepting this fact is what seems to be the hardest. In my head I imagine others with no flaws. Even though I see them. I know they are there. I am affected by them on a daily basis. But when I see my own flaws it is as though I am the only one in a world where everyone else has miraculously achieved perfection. 
   Is there a solution to this conundrum? If there is, I haven't found it quite yet. But at least I am still in the game. For now I will take it one step at a time. One soul-crushing query letter at a time.



Saturday, May 17, 2014

Open Letter to (mostly) Rihanna: I'm Not Hating, I Just Think You Can Do Better

   
Now, I ordinarily don't write about celebrity issues. Actually nowadays I rarely write about celebrity issues, but there was one incident that really got me thinking. The headlines were short and sweet and quickly snuffed out of the media:"Rihanna Mocks Fan Over Prom Dress Inspired By Singer". At first glance I thought, hmm that can't be right. Surely someone who has earned millions and endless amounts of fame like you would not be putting down one of the millions who got you to where you are (yes you did the work, but there are a lot of hard working artists out there but fans tend to make the experience more lucrative). And surely a minority female in such an influential position would not be putting down a young minority female who is exhibiting a confidence that her society is constantly trying to diminish.
   
     At this point Rihanna you could argue that you never asked to be a role model and that it's not your responsibility. But when you are making millions from people who sadly to say idolize you then to some extent it does become your responsibility. In deed that is a large burden to bear but then again that's partly why you get paid so much. That's when I realized that this whole outfit issue was not even the real issue. I'm here to formally say that Rihanna I'm not hating, I just think you can do it better. I think you can be more than your body, the clothes you wear and your overt sexuality.

     When I look back at you as an artist and many other female artists I feel a sense of deep sadness not only for my gender but for people of color. It has become very apparent that for many minorities and females in our society we have to sell our figures and our souls in order to achieve high levels of success. I have heard the argument that you and these other young women are owning their sexuality. I'm not sure how much you are owning something when you so readily sell it off. It's not just you Rihanna though. I can't put it all on you.

     Women have always been looked at as a means and symbol of sexuality. Over sexualization in the media does not send the message that we have control, it only says that we have given in to the demands of the highest bidder. True power is keeping something that is priceless. Something that has that great of a value isn't to be shared with everyone, sadly it only diminishes its value. Diamonds (as you so casually sung about) are expensive because they are rare, not just because they are beautiful. I think many of you female artists have forgotten that. Somewhere down the line someone told you you only had one kind of beauty. I don't want to be known only for my sexuality. And it's imagery like the ones you portray that perpetuates the notion that us females do not have the minds, ideas, or intellect that could rival scientists, inventors, entrepreneurs and the like.

     So to Rihanna and many of these female pop artist you are making it hard for us females who want to be seen for our souls and not our bodies. But now that I come to think of it though the headline I originally brought up makes sense. When you are banking solely on an image it could be seen as quite threatening to have a younger girl rocking the same outfit.









Sunday, July 14, 2013

Update...

I have started writing for book three. But I really need an editor for book 2. I'm querying agents. But I still go back and forth on whether this is the option I should be pursuing.